Zara Dress, Faux Fur Collar off an Asos Jumper, Steve Madden shoes
I was raised as a Christian and have technically been one for as long as I can remember. Being very inquisitive, I sometimes have battles in my head all day, trying to understand and justify the reasons for things that happen. So many things happen to make me doubt that God exists, top of the list has to be when young people die and when really bad things happen to really good people. However, I now understand that there are many questions that I will never be able to answer and will only give me a headache, there are also many things that I will never get my head around or agree with. I understand that God doesn't give me everything I want or feel I need and if I wait a while, he may give me better and I have definitely seen that happen in my life in the past few months.
There are times when I do or say something that I know that I really didn't have the wisdom or power to and I have decided to blame this on God working through me. I have been to quite a few churches trying to find the one that suits me best and I finally found it last year. I absolutely LOVE my church, super cool and unpretencious. I still don't go every sunday I get the chance to and I really don't know why, I guess it's just stupidity and laziness but I come out so happy everytime I go and today was one of those days. I made my darling cousin Temi (who took these pictures) come with me and she said it was nice but a bit like a concert, check out her blog sweetartbytemi.blogspot.com . She's totally right about it being like a concert, it's like a party in there, so much fun! Also, most of the preachers are blessed Australians and what could be better than an hour of listening to that beautiful accent?
My number one NY resolution is building a better relationship with God and I have a really long way to go. I doubt I will ever take any drastic measures such as deleting the music I listen to (hip-hop, r 'n' b etc.) or not going to clubs because I do not believe that these things are always wrong or that they define who I am. I also do not believe that God is an angry man waiting for me to go wrong as many make him out to be. I cannot wait to have a better understanding of right and wrong, know the answers to more questions and generally become bestfriends with God through bible study and prayer. I find it so weird/hard to believe that people actually hear Gods voice speaking to them, that would be the happiest day of my life! Imagine having an actual conversation? That's nuts! Lol. I strongly believe that God is loving and understanding; I know he gets angry, however I do not believe that he is vindictive. I believe his anger lasts for seconds and his mercy pours out forever. But hey, what do I know? I'm only a Work In Progress.